P.S. What I am panicky about...

For your viewing pleasure here is a list I compiled regarding my current panic induced state...
um what am I panicky about...

1. I'm in graduate school and taking Educational Law.  (This is a nightmare, and it makes me feel unintelligent, which makes me sad.)
2. I have to take a state mandated principals exam in June to the tune of $500. (Did I mention that it is SIX HOURS LONG?!)
3. I am worried that I don't like my wedding dress anymore.  (I have no reason to NOT like it, but I am sick that I will go to pick it up and cry because it wasn't what I imagined.)
4. I am the MOH (Maid of Honor) in my cousin Lisa's wedding in May.  (Which I am so honored to be, but being a MOH is tough work, and she is a special girl so I don't want to suck.)
5. I am the MOH in my best friend Tara's wedding in September.  (Again, I am soooooo honored, the timing is just crazy.  I secretly hope I am preggers by then too, after all I will be Mrs. Ward by then.)
6. I have a quiz in law tonight and I STILL don't know the info.  (UPDATE:  I got a 100% on the quiz, although I did guess on 2 of the 5 questions.)
7. My meds have been lowered.  (I take Zoloft for anxiety, a SUPER low dose, at least that is what I tell myself.  My meds have been lowered so that I can get off of them before I get preggers, so I am now taking half-dosages, thus the increased anxiety.)
8. I have a bridal shower in March.  (I am not an ungrateful bitch, but I don't do situations such as those very well because I wear my emotions on my face and if someone gives me a weird crystal bowl, they are going to be able to tell that I am thinking WTF?)
9. I have a bridal shower in April.  (Please see aforementioned explanation.  In addition, having two showers, again, totally grateful, is just twice the anxiety.)
10. I have to go to a shower/bachelorette party in April.  (This is for my cousin Lisa, and I am certain it is going to be a blast, but all her girls are young and fun, and I am old and uncool.)
    
11. We have to go to a wedding in March.  (Stress.)
    
12. We have to go to a wedding in May.  (Stress, AND it is all the way is effing Pennsylvania.)
    
13. I am teach the children.  (Enough said.) 
    
14. I pick up my wedding dress soon.  (This means, I have to love it, and get it fitted, not once but twice.  Also I have to find a flower accent for the dress, and my hair.)
    
15. I am dieting.  (I could eat 30 Big Macs, I swear.)
    
16. I am exercising.  (This is exhausting and I look like a miserable BITCH at the gym, but I go there, get the job done and call it a day.)
    
17. I have NO MONEY, as in can barely even afford my bills.  (Thank God I am marrying up, HA!  Just kidding my sweet future hubs.)
    
18. I don't want anyone to be disappointed with our wedding because we can only afford what we are doing.  (This is pure vanity, but I can't help it.)
19. I slept like shit last night.  (Nothing pisses me off more than sleeping like shit.  UGH.)
    
20. I am eating a deer cheddar dog at 9:55 p.m.  (I couldn't help myself, and the future hubs go me the go ahead.  He is such an enabler, bless his heart.) 

Shorter lists and Chill pills.
XO.
Terra